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Haven't posted in a while o_o

2012-01-28T22:15:00.000-08:00

Nothing much has happened besides the fact that yesterday, I had a math test and I actually almost felt like crying while taking it because I blanked out!

nonetheless I'm trying to keep thinking positive -_- despite having to deal with trying to pass calc and my freakin college crap, I've been booming with creative ideas lately :3

Yesterday I edited a commercial to be played at my school :3

I am so proud of this xD I think it came out perfect :3 I gave it a dreamy vintage vibe you could say xD

I also have to edit another commercial for my school's magazine :O I don't think it will be as cute as this one xD

Last Wednesday, during Japanese club, a science teacher at my school taught us all how to do kumihimo!

It's basically a Japanese form of braiding rope xD agh it's addicting

On Friday, after school, I JUST HAD TO GET SOME STRING TO MAKE MORE KUMIHIMO LOL.

Going to Michael's was very inspiring haha. On Thusday, my mind was all over the place while we were reading Hamlet in class and then I got the idea of making my own cell phone charms to be sold at anime cons omg. I would use a kumihimo braid as the strap and then attach a cute charm at the end or alphabet beads that spell out cute stuff :3 I really wanted to find hiragana alphabet beads so I could spell out "kawaii" or "tomodachi" but I couldn't find any online -_- not even on ebay xP

I also came up with another product to be sold: Headbands! xD

No not like hair headbands xD I mean like badass head bands like this:

LOL.

I'm pretty okay with writing kanji, and I know if I improve, it will look good enough to paint on a headband :3 if not kanji, I can easily write stuff in hiragana like "kawaii" AGAIN LOL or "sugoi" and katakana like "otaku" haha xD they would be like 2 or 3 dollars a headband :3

Anyway, back to when I was at Michael's,

I got this:

I put away the sparkly purple chord because I didn't really need it :<

Here are the cute charms I found that I wish I could buy xD:

loved these haha. I would make "good luck" charms with them xD

hearts<3

omg so cool *O* I'd use the anchor for one charm and the sword + skull for another :3

crosses for the religious folk xD

keys~ reminds me of chibi-usa xD I'd pair one of the previous hearts with a key :3

pretty! a charm with this one would be a pricier one xD

buttons xD remind me of avril lavigne LOL

ice cream buttons! not sure how I'd attach them to the string but I'll find a way xD

sparkly balls LOL. I think I have an idea how to attach them but idk if their very durable xD

So yeah that's it lol.

I've been working on this long braid xD I wanted to see how much two things of string would make haha. eventually I'll get around to make a charm prototype :3 Hopefully this idea will become a reality and a good business venture haha~

:P

2012-01-22T20:04:00.000-08:00

I told myself that this weekend I wasn't going to end up waiting until Sunday to do shit. Ugh well it happened again! I am SO SICK of this crap! Next weekend for sure I won't be the same -____-. I don't have any mandatory assignments but I have a hell of a lot of studying to do omg. Meh, I'm just gonna straighten up my room and get my school crap together for the morning. Tomorrow is the first away game for academic team and I'm gonna make a video project on it. Since I'll bet getting home late I want to get a lot of homework done at school. I've just been so distracted with my new story ideas ugh. Yes, I write and I've been occasionally writing to these four stories since freshmen year and I just came up with a new idea that I've been slightly obsessing and overly daydreaming about *sigh* I'm very annoyed with real life and school and not to mention I have to get my crap together for that UCF application. I finished my essay today but I'll revise it tomorrow. mehh I also have to remember that poem for the foreign language festival. I'm working on 4 (including the academic team) video projects as well. WHERE DO THE HOURS AND THE DAYS GO?! It's like before I know it, it's 11 o'clock and it's time to sleep -_- so tired of this!

boring post bleh~

2012-01-18T19:34:00.000-08:00

So this week is going by slowish yet fast. I'm surprised tomorrow is Thursday!

Nothing really exciting happened so far this week. Today was a Japanese club meeting and we distributed club t-shirts and made the plans for how to make money during the ~*Valentine's Season*~ I plan on trying to make as much money as I can so the fieldtrip can be cheaper xD I'm going to make flyers and a commercial to be played on potpourri (school program consisting of video's made by tv production students. broadcasted throughout the entire school on Friday's before three day weekends/breaks.

Anyway that was that.

Karate was so much of a workout tonight omg x_x I feel so tired <_< but at least I'm getting more in shape xD now those horrible eating habits of mine...

ugh I'm annoyed at myself for slightly choosing facebook over homework. I got mandatory work done, but as for studying, I barely did any! I was just talking to so many people UGH I REMEMBER THE DAYS WHEN I DISLIKED FACEBOOK BECAUSE NO ONE WOULD TALK TO ME <_<

anyway this is how I looked today:

and on another note, I've fallen back in love with dir en grey xD For a long time, I've been trying to avoid music that would remotely remind me of bad things that have happened in the past. Some of my favorite dir en grey songs are so sad that I thought it would be a good idea to just try and avoid listening to them. idk if that makes much sense, but that's what happened. Now I realized that I need to accept what happened, and my feelings and use their music to help. meh, again I feel like that sounds kind of weak xD but that's how I feel I guess.

I love this song and video LOL. okay, not something I can truly relate to, but gah I love this song o_O yeah it's something that most people would be surprised that I liked -_-

now time to get my crap ready for school and off to bed!

Where do the days go?

2012-01-16T20:46:00.000-08:00

I was very unproductive this 3-day weekend. One of my New Years Resolutions was so not wait until the last minute to do homework. I wanted to make sure that I was busy everyday, but nope! This weekened I failed to get all my crap done! ugh! I hate this! I at least cleaned my room, but that was it!

On Saturday my mom was mad at me for getting a D in math so that ruined my day and I slept for three hours even though I slept for 12 hours the night before -_-

Then on Sunday we went to pick out the elliptical machine. It will be delivered on Friday omg I can't wait to get in shape O_O

And now that brings me to today. I didn't finish my outline on the Constitution because I WAITED TOO DAMN LONG and I think it might be due wednesday. agh no need to rush tonight. it's not worth it -_- I need 5 hours of sleep. Then I was hauling ass to finish my math worksheet that would replace a quiz grade. Luckily, my friend will help me finish the last four problems in the morning.

I really don't like this and it has to stop! Megacon is already in a month and I have to get all my work and grades in order before I go! I didn't even finish my UCF essay or application, but the good news is that my semester average for calc is a C, so I HAVE to send in my application ASAP! It's still not too late, but I have to get that crap done omg.

So tomorrow brings another week of school. I don't think I'm going to go out and do fun things on Fridays anymore. idk I feel like it screws me up. At least if I do something I won't be out until 1AM omg. The only reason why I would have to be out with friends is when I have to buy the finishing touches for my snsd cosplay. That's it. Meh, I hate worrying about school! I also have a test on Wednesday in my ap government class and my teacher doesn't allow retakes x_x I hope I can at least get a C <_<

mehh I also have to stay after school to film that dumb project that I'm working on with those guys meh

ok it's time to sleep!

Friday the 13th

2012-01-14T01:45:00.000-08:00

School was pretty okay today. Nothing too exciting happened as usual.

There was an argument with this smart ass boy and this girl who thinks she's a diva. It was in my 6th class. The whole thing was unnecessary but entertaining LOL.

After school I stayed for a meeting for my school's magazine. meh it was meh I guess. There are a lot of bad submissions, so that was pretty entertaining to read.

After that I went home and then after a while, I got ready to go out to eat dinner with my friends xD

o_O

herpderp

One of my friends told me that this girl and her boyfriend were going to come too. I don't really know that girl that well, and I don't think I'd like her too much once I got to know her either <_<. They never showed up though LOL. I also didn't expect my other friend to go because he was sick, and had to go to his grandma's, but he got better and idk how he got out of that o_O

But anyway, we ate at Tokyo, this Japanese restaurant (duh LOL) where I had my birthday dinner before haha. It's a pretty nice place, but meh I wish more young people were there <_< It was just grown ups and blehh I want to be around more young people when I go places LOL gah xD

Really cool salad my friend Mick got with squid, snails, octopus and seaweed. We all thought it was ice cream at first xD

My friends Mick and Taylor who are boyfriend and girlfriend LOL

Corey, me, and dkjfhdfg LOL

take 2~

DYNAMITE ROLL.

omg it was really good o-o I shared with corey and he only ate two LOL. very filling o-o
I already kind of forgot what was in it,but I think it was asparagus, caviar, and fried...salmon? xD

They are such a cute couple xD Their personalities mix really well haha

It was funny because it was like me and Mick were brother and sister and Taylor and Corey were brother and sister xD Two blonde and two asians haha~

We went bowling afterwards. I haven't gone bowling in YEARS. It was fun though xD I got better-ish through the night haha. My friends saw some people they knew and then we ended up bowling next two these two guys and Donovan who went to my school xD It was really fun. From 9PM-1AM is unlimited bowling for $13 and then the lights were turned off and it was cosmic bowling xD I never did that before lol!

omg

Mick bowing in action. LOL

DERRRP~

We'll definitely do this again. I felt overdressed LOL. I thought we were only going to eat dinner. I didn't know we were going to do something that required physical activity l 0 l, but I survived and had fun haha.

Ehh I don't really like the way I look in that last picture, it just makes me want to get even more serious about losing weight -___- My mom said that she plans on getting this workout machine instead of getting a gym membership so hopefully that will happen so x_x I didn't even want to wear those jeans at first. In fact, I didn't want to wear jeans at all LOL. But I thought it went best with the blazer so I wore them even though they were uncomfortable -_- These jeans used to be SO LOOSE in 9th grade so the point where I didn't even want to wear them. Now it's like hell agh so constricting and I can't lift my legs too high -_- and I'm flexible too wtf. But yeah, I just feel really uncomfortable and not as confident as I should be T_T

I also kind of don't know what to do with my hair o_O My side bangs are a mess, but I'm trying to grow them out. They're almost gone omg finally. Other than that, idk my hair looks plain? I don't like curls too much on me though so idk o_O I guess I should experiment with some styles. Up-do? braids? xD maybe I should chop my hair up some more haha.

Also, seeing my two friends as a couple made me wish I had a boyfriend LOL. But at the same time, there's no one really compatible with me at school or anywhere in this city so I have to wait <_< idk they just looked really cute and meh I guess everyone feels like this when they're with a couple and their single xD

One More Day!!

2012-01-12T20:27:00.000-08:00

Tuesday:

Wednesday:

@_@ Had a quiz in government and calc

I know I didn't do well on them -_-

Except, in government, that was ou first free response question, so we'll have time to improve and make up for it. As for math, if you do better on the test than on the quiz, then the grade will be overrided.

mehh still xP

After school I met with these guys who want to do a video project with me. Someone wrote the script and I have to direct it. They're eccentric LOL. We plan on starting to film next week. I stayed in that classroom about an hour and a half after school. The teacher was in a faculty meeting xD That classroom is a cool hangout spot LOL. The classes taught here are networking, computer programming, and game design so you can get a feel of it from that haha xD geeks rock LOL.

I then went to the Physics classroom (teacher was also at the meeting) and I met with my two other group members to work on our project.

Then it was almost time for the 8th grade extravaganza. I decided to not leave school because I didn't want my mom to have to pick me up, take me home, take me back to school, go back home, come back to school to pick me up, and then go home LOL.

While people waited, my school's orchestra played in the auditorium. they suck LOL. But it's okay because my friend's in it and she told me so bahaha. Then after that were some speeches by students who represented each academy. Some were SO derpy. Some people had their parents do a speech as well. This one guy's mom went on and on and on about him and he's not even that amazing of a student wtf -_-

I also surprisingly saw one of my really good friends there! xD He's dating my my other good friend again now LOL. He visited just to see everyone. He told me that he got a new car so he can now definitely drive to orlando for megacon!!!! :D

Anyway, it was really fun volunteering there. I saw a girl who goes to my karate school :3 I forgot she's in 8th grade xD It was really an eye opener *deep thinking* It wasn't too long ago, when I was wondering what high school I would go too. These 8th graders look so young, yet at one point, I thought being in 8th grade was a big deal! I felt proud representing my school, because my school has somewhat of a bad rep, but seeing how nicely everyone came together and set up all these nice booths showcasing what my school has to offer, was just really really nice~ Although, I hope they don't get disappointed. Lately, I've been thinking, "UGH MY SCHOOL SUX" because I think of how other high school probably would have prepared their students better for college. meh, but all in all, I'm glad I chose to go to this high school because it gave me a lot of different experiences xD

And then here comes the horrible part of my night.

I had to finish the government project. We had to make a book called "Federalists for Dummies" xD We summarized Federalist 10 into simple words and made it into a children's book. I had to draw everything. omg that was hell. I slept for one hour, woke up at 12, drew some pictures, slept some more, woke up at 2, drew some more, and then finally it was 5 and I got ready for school lol.

Today:

Nothing too interested happened today.

In my Japanese class we had to pair up and practice some stuff. Me and that derp guy I used to like ended up being partners. It's so funny how you can like someone and then after a while realize how WEIRD that was.

His Japanese pronunciation really gets me...in a bad way. I don't think he's really listened to Japanese a lot o_O like some people watch anime, listen to Japanese music, but he does none of that, so he kind of tries to make this Japanese fake accent and gah it annoys me LOL. However, I oddly think Sensei ships us together because she kept watching us and idk she married an American maybe she likes the asian girl + white boy thing. BUT IT COULD JUST BE ME THINKING WEIRD AGAIN. Just like how my friend said she saw that sensei had a lazy eye xD I've been looking for it ever since she told me that LOL.

ap govt was intense as always.

calc was meh

I stayed in math for lunch lol

I spaced out the entire time in ap human geo. we were reading an article on race. I kind of already knew about that stuff <_< I honestly just daydreamed about if my alter ego and jay park were out on a date O M G

6th and 7th in tv production consisted of me doing math hw and doing notes xP

blah blah blah

When I went to karate I was paired up with this middle schooler girl. She's really adorable :3 we're like the same height LOL. I think she's in 8th grade? Anyway, she told me this sad story. At school, I heard about this girl who ran over her brother, and it turned out that my partner new him. She said that she went to her school (same middle school I went to) and he was in 7th grade. I think it was like, he got in the car, the sister did something, he ended up flying out of the car, and then she ran over his stomach, and then he died in the hospital. She also said there was a memorial at her school for him. Wow that's really terrible. I wonder how the sister feels. She was only 18. She was only my age! I can't even imagine how I would feel if that happened to me, or if I knew someone who was in a situation like that.

On a brighter note, I really admire that girl who was my partner xD I've been paired with her a few times before btw. She comes to class every single day and she's already at her purple belt. She's been attending class since 2010, whereas I got my purple belt in maybe 8th/9th grade when I was attending for 2/3 years. She's also really good to spar and grapple with because she puts up a good fight xD ahh she's really adorable haha. I heard that she started taking karate because she got beat up in school D: Which probably explains why she's more dedicated compared to when I started because of wanting to be like an anime character sdfkjhdfg

Anyways, tomorrow is Friday! I'm soo happy xD I was supposed to write my English essay tonight, but I'll turn it in late since my teacher doesn't care :P agh it's about Macbeth <_< I don't understand Shakespeare too well <_< mehh but anyway TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!

I remember Sunday night when I was saying, "wow I can't wait for this week to be over" LOL. The first week back is always hard, but then we all get used to it xD

okay enough of this I need to study for my vocab test tomorrow.

Busy Busy!

2012-01-09T19:19:00.000-08:00

Saturday:

So about that Driver's Ed course...well, I woke up on time, but after contemplating while half awake, I decided not to go <_< I really should have. omg wtf was I thinking?! At the time I was like, "yawwwn~ well u kno driving is a really important skill, and I think i wood have a bettur experience if i just had a private 2tor because it would meen moar 1 on 1 tym and itll be better than tha free diver's ed. ok good *falls asleep*" wow that's as bad a drunk thinking. Anyway, a private tutor isn't TOO expensive <_<....

other than that, I didn't do anything at all that day D:

Sunday:

I woke up at 1PM D: I felt so groggy and annoyed at myself :P I didn't do anything but hw during the day -_-

Today:

ew! school today!

Luckily, I woke up on time to catch the bus O_O

I planned on doing some math hw in the morning, but I didn't <_< I just talked to my friends lol.

I barely survived first period. I forgot a packet we were talking about in class, but I was able to get by. phew! I found the packet at home though x_x thank gawd~

In Japanese, we continued learning about restaraunts in Japan haha. People are still derps in my class. Sensei moved some people around to hopefully eliminate talking in class, but it didn't work as much as planned xP

This one guy in my class, who I oddly used to like (don't judge me 0k), keeps asking sensei about things like how "the japanese dislike the chinese."

oh my gosh u baka just st0p.

One day, I'm going to tell him that it's basically like how black people and white people have had a bad history together omg. MEHH ANYWAY--

For the foreign language festival I have to memorize this poem called "Ame ni mo Makezu."

Here it is recited by this deep manly voice LOL:

He pronounces a few things differently from the way I'm supposed to on the sheet I have, but I LIKE HIS VOICE LOL. IDK IF I FIND IT SEXY OR NOT I'm scared the guy who's reciting this is old or something haha, how awkward, but HE HAS A NICE VOICE LOL.

I really want to win this because Sensei says that there's a guy from the other high school who seems pretty smart ._. NO! I CAN'T LOSE TO YOU!

anyway, government was okay. we got into groups to work on a group assignment.

calc was okay derp.

I stayed in my math class to get help during lunch. I got a D on my report card

and I don't want to submit my application to UCF with that grade on my transcript so I have to work hard! I HAVE to get my grade fixed before February!

In ap human geo we had a sub with a very foreign-y accent and she was very strict and of course the freshmen acted like...freshmen and yeah it was bleh LOL.

My last two classes, tv production, were okay. I did some math hw in 7th period xPP

After school was the most exciting LOL. It was the first academic team competition LOL~ Some friends and I got food at Panera after school. It was lulzy xD I got a salad and a sandwich and it was filling o_o!!

Seeing other students from other schools was really interesting to me xD I Saw a couple people who went to my middle school, but I didn't say anything <_< idk if they remembered me or not lol. Some people looked like such stereotypical academic team students xD I would say my school's team looked the most relaxed lol. I saw some azn kids of course. bahaha xD

I only joined the team because I wanted it to look good for college and I was curious as to how these competitions were like xD so I didn't feel any pressure OTL. I'm so useless on there, but I'm not the only useless member so it's okay xD we also have some really smart people on our team so it balances out haha.

I didn't even get to stay through the first round haha. I left after 10 minutes into the first round xD it was so

interesting to watch! bahaha. I had to leave for karate :3 I know next time, at an away game, I'll stay the whole time xD I'm already going to miss a day of karate this week because I have to stay at school to help with the 8th grade extravaganza. But yeah, It'll be like a field trip LOL. Plus I like everyone on the academic team xD so it's a good bonding experience haha. good senior year memories~

I'll get home at like 10PM though omg.

I barely made it to karate on time and it was self defense xD a very much needed class.

Then I went home and did some hw. I'm trying to get together some people for this video project my teacher

wants me to do so I spent a lot of time talking to this guy about it.

I also talked a little to my friends on facebook about megacon. I'm so excited! I'm dressing up like SNSD's navy angel genie outfits xD

I have heels that are almost the same color! they are SO high though. freakin charlotte russe heels <_< they were only 30 dollars and I stretched them out already :3 I have a black blazer <_< it's so hard to find a cheap navy blazer omg. I also have a really cool miltary hat I got at a halloween store like 2 years ago. I know how to get the accessories and find white shorts so I'll be in good shape too. OH speaking of shape, I'm trying to tone up D: I have so much weight to lose until then omg. I always feel self conscious wearing shorts, so hopefully in a month I can lose some weight <_< the high heels make my legs look slender though lol.

Anyway, I better get off now because I still have a little to work out, do a little more homework and take a shower! Lots to do, but I love feeling busy!

Good day today!

2012-01-06T21:22:00.000-08:00

Yesterday sucked!!! It was so boring and ugh! not good -_-

Today was great though

In my first period, ap english lit, we continued reading Macbeth. My teacher assigned male roles to girls and female roles to guys haha. Only a few people were reading with good emotion though. I should have volunteered but I didn't feel like it lol.

In Japanese we continued learning about restaraunts in japan as an introduction on how to order food in Japan and yadda yadda. My classmates in there are such derps I swear, and it's only the guys who are mainly in 11th grade. Meh, if I explained it would be too much to type out and I would annoy myself thinking about them, but they are so derp and immature.

OMG I FIGURED OUT HOW TO PUT TEXT RIGHT NEXT TO A PICTURE.

Anyway, in ap government, I saw my friend Christina. Today was her birthday! I love birthdays! She looked really cute today :D I loved her outfit haha. In class, we continued taking notes and my teacher proved to me that she's even more badass than I thought haha. Ugh, she's just such a passionate teacher!

Calc was all right. We took more notes. It was soo hard to stop myself from falling asleep! I was like in pain from trying to make myself not fall asleep!

During lunch I sat in the Physics room as usual with my friends xD Christina shared some of the yummy stuff she got for her birthday haha. It's cool how we're all 18 now, but my friend Maggie was like, "yay we can all go to the club now." AND IT WAS JUST SO FUNNY BECAUSE LOL US? AT A CLUB OMG YOU JUST HAD TO BE THERE FOR IT TO BE FUNNY LOL. Then I came up with the idea of us wearing sweater vests going there and gah it was just so funny haha. derpderp.

In ap human geo, we did another dumb assignment booo

In TV production, I had to go take a picture of the drumline, but it was pointless because there was another girl there who is in the yearbook staff. She had a way better camera and omg why did I have to do that it was so pointless.

In seventh, also tv production, I planned my next video idea for a contest xD it'll be great mwahaha~

After school time yay~

There was a meeting for the school's magazine, Torchlights. The teacher who was helping us moved to another school so now we have this other teacher sponsoring us now lol. he's a derp, but a nice d00d. We were thinking of doing a bake sale to get money and my friends were thinking of secretly making special brownies L O L. THEY WOULD KEEP COMING BACK FOR MORE. omg we're horrible people so horrible derp.

At the end of the meeting I told the teacher guy that I was willing to do this video project about acmt, the academy I'm in, and he said he would tell his students about it mehh don't care about doing it but I have to xP

okay so now it's after school yahoo~

Befor Christina's mom picked her up, Heather gave her a mini photoshoot xD I'll put a picture on here tomorrow lol.

Once she left, we left. We dropped this guy home who heather takes home everyday. he's interesting LOL. then we went to heather's house to pick up a check, and then we went to this place so she could pay her cable bill yawn yawn boring

Afterwards, we went to chipotle to eat xD

I had a burrito bowl LOL

IT MADE ME FEEL KAWAII*~*~*~

damn i am so bad i asked for the water cup and i actually got soda oops

my wallet and Heather's wallet :O

done LOL

HAYYYY~

It was so funny there because there was someone working there who goes to our school and my friend kept freaking out about him lolol. Then I think even though I picked diet coke, the machine gave me regular and the sugar from it made me feel really hyper LOL. I think sometimes I'm sensitive to sugary drinks LOL IT WAS FUN.

Then we got food for her brother and dropped it at her house and then went to the mall lalala

We saw someone we knew working at this one store and then when we went in Books A Million we ran into some friends who used to go to our school LOL. IT WAS SO SURPRISING. They look way more mature now, but they still act the same xD

then we left and I went home lololol

Tomorrow I have to wake up at 6:30 so I can see if there's an empty spot in the driver's ed course. Yesterday, my teacher told me that usually at the beginning of every driver's ed saturday course, there's a couple of people who don't show up, so their spot goes to someone on the waiting list. She told me that instead of missing that first day waiting for a phone call, I should just show up there so I can go immediately lol. She said she's not supposed to do that, but she said she doesn't care o-O might as well give it a shot.

mehhh

Oh and I found all these icons from this one site xD I've seen this character around the web since middle school but I didn't know where to get all of the gifs *O* the piggie ones are my fave haha

byebye~

I FINALLY got my permit today woahhh

2012-01-04T20:18:00.000-08:00

Today started off lousy -__- I completely slept through all five of the alarms on my phone! D: I hate it when this happens! I probably fell asleep in bed at 1AM <_< I woke up at 7:30 dsfkjhdfg I missed first period and when I arrived, the bell for second period to start rang!

I really didn't want to go to buc stop. Buc Stop is this room in my school were student are sent to if they are late to class/school. Basically, they have to sit in that room the entire class period and not do ANYTHING -___-. really sucks, but luckily I felt like being a badass and avoided going there LOL. There were a lot of people in student services getting their new schedules for the semester so I simply went to Japanese and no administrators stopped me or noticed me mwahaha. When sensei asked me why I just got there, I was like "I just got here and no one told me to go to buc stop" LOL. Pays off being invisible and she was okay with it xD

The rest of the day was blah. I really dislike school now. I used to LOVE going to school because I loved seeing everyone and being around people and just loved school. But now that I've been to many places since last summer, I've realized that there's so much more interesting places than school D: At least it helps me focus better. All I care about is going there, getting my crap done, and then leaving! I'm so ready for college because I will not miss any of these annoying people younger than me! :P

But anyway, the only new thing about my schedule was that I have AP Govt instead of econ because seniors at my school have to take one semester of econ and one semester of government in order to graduate. My AP Government teacher is really badass lol. She said that only two people in the entire class will get an A, and that this class is a pain in the butt l o l. I'm glad I'm finally getting an AP teacher who knows exactly what she's doing and is treating us like real AP kids.

Moment of truth came: I took my permit test after school. There was a long wait in the line even though I had an appointment xP The road rules test was kinda tricky <_< luckily I got the minimum right 15/20. For the road signs part I got 15 right in a row and I was done xD phew! However my debit card didn't work because it's Visa so I had to wait for my mom xP This is my ticket from when I was waiting to take the test LOL, but I took a picture when I was waiting for my mom.

She gave me my checkbook, but they don't take starter checks -_- so we had to go to an ATM. Then I was able to get my permit :3 My picture is meh x_x

Tomorrow is Thursday :PPP It better be better than today. I just want the weekend to come already agh! This semester is going to be another hell -_- Maybe if I had more friends at school or if there were attractive guys, school wouldn't be so boring and annoying. I'm able to focus in class better but bleh! -_-

ehh I better sleep soon so I make sure I can wake up tomorrow

School Tomorrow u_u

2012-01-03T17:41:00.000-08:00

Yesterday and Today I went around town with my friend Heather LOL.

Yesterday was a meh day :P I woke up at 1PM, so I was groggy, and then my little sister spilled sprite on my backpack and some papers and I was SO MAD. Then she got mad at me and started saying really bad things for a 5 year old to say, so then I made her leave my room <_< I hate being mad at my sister but she can be so bad sometimes agh.

But then I went to Sally Beauty Supply with my friend like we planned the night before. I never went there before haha.

omg unicorn omg.

I went there to get thinning shears though. They were like $19.99 so I wasn't sure if it was overpriced or what but I thought they would be a good investment.

Afterwards, we ate at Asian Grill, this new Asian restaurant xD

lol this anime guy

I had pad thai for the first time, because I wanted to try something spicy and new xD it was okay, but I don't think I'll order it there again <_<

After that, I went home and mehh I was feeling so exhausted @_@ I didn't even do anything but I felt terrible LOL. I guess I didn't sleep well the night before. I thinned my hair out a little because I couldn't wait to experiment with those scissors and I studied for my permit test derp.

It's really not a lot at all LOL.

Today:

I planned to take my permit test today because of my hardcore studying the night before lol. My mom had to make some important phone calls though and it would take forever for her and my little sister to get ready so I just asked my friend Heather to take me instead xD nice friends are nice LOL. Our other friend Alexis was there too xD

When we got to the DMV there were so many people <_< there was a somewhat cute guy there L O L. Turns out that there was a 2 hour wait for permit testing -_- so I made an appointment tomorrow to take it at 2. I'm so annoyed at myself for waiting this long. The deadline for signing up for Driver's Ed was the last day before winter break, but I thought that there would still be some spots open after the deadline because there usually are <___< I want to do it on Saturday and I'm thinking that not many other people will want to because well, it's a saturday LOL, and it will be at Seabreeze, the other high school, and uh who would want to go there? l o ll. Meh, but that's hope for the best -_-.

We went to the mall afterwards and my friend Heather picked out some cool stuff xD The dressing room at CottonOn is really cool omg so I took a picture of myself derrrp.

Then we ate at Chick-fil-A and then went to Target xD

The whole time I was looking for a serious wallet LOL because now, I have important things like my debit card and my voter's card O_O I can't keep using the wallet I have now OTL

not my number one style of choice but it works~

Then we all went home LOL.

I thinned my hair out some more xD ooh I'm so daring bahaha. I figure out how the scissors worked. It's hard to stop omg.

this is a lot LOL. it's a mixture of last night. it' doesn't look like much but this ball of hair is really dense omg.

I would take a picture of me with my hair before and after, but it's hard to tell by looking at it xD It's just thinner, but in order to really tell you have to feel it I guess haha. I'm so glad I got this. Now I don't think I'll go back to a salon in a long time. I have regular hair shears and now thinning shears so I'm good to go! xD I like feeling independent like this because haircuts are expensive xP

mehh that's about it xP I've gotten into U-Kiss now LOL, so while I was thinning out my hair I was listening to them on youtube xD I wish I gave them a chance earlier but I was just so scarred by Not Young OTL. They're songs are so good o_o were my ears broken back then? LOL. I've been asking myself that question a lot lately haha.

L 0 L

Tomorrow I finally have school and I'm not looking forward to it, but I have no choice u_u my grade in math is horrible so I reallllyyyy have to fix that. I also want to fix my grade in economics from the first 9 weeks. mehh school sux I just wanna go to college already, but I feel like I'll totally regret that.

Goodbye 2011

2011-12-31T20:26:00.000-08:00

2011 was a pretty good year. It was WAY better than 2010, and I did a lot of things this year.

But now it's time to look back on it before I say bye-bye!

In the beginning of 2011 I was still in 11th grade. I was so happy to start a new year because 2010 was the worst year of my life. I knew that since I wanted things to be better this year, I had to start at once. I started planning my routine derp for the miss mainland competition and before I knew it, it was audition time. I always make this part of my life such a big deal, because well it was LOL. It was a great experience to do something I never did before. Sadly, my performance wasn't my best :P but I'm glad I didn't freeze, mess up, or ran off stage crying xD I've learned from it and when I do perform another dance on stage, I know that I have to be LESS STIFF.

Being in Japanese club gave me a lot of fun experiences too :3 The foreign language festival held at another high school was so fun and a lot of people thought we looked so cool in our yukatas ;D

Also, the Japanese club field trip to the Morikami museum was great too. It wasn't totally new since we went there last year, but it was still great. Nothing wrong about getting closer to Japanese culture /weeaboo moment. LOL~

I also became more daring in my video projects. I started to enter more contests and I won some! I went ahead with whatever idea I had in mind. Before, I would have second guessed myself thinking that the idea would be too weird for people.

(won first place in the AFJT (Association of Florida Japanese Teachers) music video contest)

(won first place in the "Digital Story Telling" portion of the Volusia County Literacy Fair)

(won first place in the St.John's Riverkeeper PSA contest) DID NOT THINK I WOULD WIN WITH THIS ONE LOL OMG I H8 THIS.

A 2011 progressed, I worked really hard in school and finally felt so much weight get taken off my shoulders when summer started. I wanted to make sure this summer I accomplished many things, but yeah that didn't happen. I planned on getting my permit. Nope didn't happen. I wanted to lose 20 pounds. Nope did NOT happen LOL. I wanted to learn more dances and get better at what I thought I was good at, but instead I was a lazy sloth omg.

(my room was really messy so I decided to take a picture before I cleaned it LOL)

The only thing I accomplished was getting volunteer hours done at my karate school. I still didn't get a whole lot though. I aimed for 100, but I got about 60. It was hell, but that might just be me. I didn't like volunteering at all. I only liked the fact that I could get more practice in, but wow I did not like it. I can't yell at kids, idk why, it's like the overpower me and that's a very inferior thing to say, but wow I just can't yell at them <_< maybe because I think I'm a child myself l o l. Either way, being around kids and realizing how annoying they -_-.

(I survived volunteering -_-)

However, I did experience a lot of things that summer that gave me a lot of good memories and lessons.

I went to my first anime con with two friends. The con itself left a bad taste in my mouth, but I still had lots of fun. I learned that small first year cons, in not so big cities aren't worth it LOL. Well, I bet sometimes they are, but in that case no lol. Also, if you really want to get to know a person, spend an entire weekend with them LOL.

About a week later was the surprise and random trip to New Jersey. Again, I was putting myself in a situation I never did before LOL. I don't know my aunt, uncle, and cousin very well. Last time I saw them was in 9th grade and that was for the first time. I got to become familiar with them and it was a good feeling to have more of a family than the people I live with at home. I also learned how to adjust myself to different situations.

Seeing New York City, ...The Jersey Shore LOL, and just being in a completely different part of the country was a great thing. It inspired me so much. There's so much in the world than just the place I love and there are so many cool people out there. If you ever feel like you don't fit someplace, just escape and you'll find where you belong c:

I also rode on an airplane by myself LOL. That was really cool xD I felt so independent LOL.

Of course I can't mention that trip to new jersey without mentioning good ol' GUY FROM PARTY. Wow. Well let me tell you, I haven't forgotten about him <_<. Talking to him actually helped me gain some confidence and helped me realize that I'M PRETTY OMG. If it wasn't for one mistake we would still be talking together. When I had to leave I didn't ask for his phone number, because he didn't ask for mine and I was too embarrassed to, BUT EVERYONE WAS SHIPPING US TOGETHER SO BADLY OMG IF I JUST ASKED FOR HIS NUMBER IT WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN A BIG DEAL. So yes I learned that I shouldn't be afraid to be forward with how I feel about someone, especially if I like them. I kept thinking that, for some reason, I would be able to see him again, but I didn't. I realized that I shouldn't take moments for granted -_-

So when I came back home I was really sad that I couldn't talk to him again. I mean, I was REALLY REALLY sad.

The rest of my summer wasn't too great. Here's the part of the year that was bad. There was a lot of fighting in my house between my sister's dad and my mom because he secretly started drinking out of stress from his job because he screwed up a lot of things and blehh it was a mess. I cried many times because I thought we were going to lose our house because he threatened to stop paying the bills and since my mom isn't working, we wouldn't have any way to pay for the house. I had to prepare myself to stop karate and possibly move up north with my aunt (actually, that part didn't seem too hard to accept sdkjfhdfg). Eventually things worked out, but I still can't say I really really like my sister's dad.

School started soon. Wow it's my senior year!

The beginning of the year was very discouraging. I was so overwhelmed by ap economics and ap calc. I started to change my attitude though. Instead of continuously asking myself, "WHY THE FUCK DID I CHOOSE TO DO THIS?!" I started to look at the lessons more open and positively. Okay, I still didn't get an A, but at least I'm not at stressed out LOL.

I also became even more daring about my video project as well. I made a rap parody and I actually tried to make it good this time LOL. I started planning it over the summer and it turned out pretty good xD A lot of people liked it and I'm so glad LOL. Athough, I wish it was more popular on youtube :< Aside from that one project though, I haven't really made anything that was really great after x_x;;

Hmm what else happened my senior year? Well, I realized that senior year is hell and all about work and it's not fun and I'm ready to leave high school lol. In my junior year, I was so scared to end high school. I didn't feel like I was ready and I just wanted to stay at Mainland forever. Ha. YEAH RIGHT! Although I do want to enjoy my final year in high school, I am so excited to get out in the world and leave lametona beach.

I went to a lot of good football games this year. Spirit week was pretty fun, the homecoming carnival and homecoming itself was pretty okay.

Halloween came and I spent it with a childhood friend. We were best friends when we were little, but as we grew older she started to get into a lot of bad stuff like drugs and experimenting and I thought that we were too different to even hang out together. Of course, I didn't ever tell her that, but every time she wanted to see me I just made an excuse. However she got out of that stuff and was able to graduate high school. When I saw her again, it reassured me that she was still the same person I knew when we were little. It was a really great feeling :D Sadly, I couldn't fully enjoy my Halloween because of school work, but it was still memorable.

Thanksgiving rolled by and it wasn't too extraordinary, although it kind of feels like it just happened yesterday o-o My friend Heather came over and it was nice :3

Finally, December, the final month of 2011. This was a great month! The semester was coming to a close so I was definitely working my ass off L O L. The week before finals was soo stressful because I had to finish a lot of make up work, and then finals week was hell because, well, it's FINALS LOL. I passed econ with a C, but I didn't do well at all in calc <_< not to mention that the calc exam was on my birthday :< but it was okay, because the next day I left with my friends to Holiday Matsuri :D

Holiday Matsuri was the perfect way to spend my birthday. My friends were all a blast to be around with and I never got annoyed at them xD Well, my friend Mick was a little annoying at first because he would always be like, "omg he look so gay!" or "omg is that a man?!" but we all yelled at him so he stopped n_n. I saw so many cool people there and awesome cosplays. It was oddly inspiring LOL. It inspired me to be less afraid to be myself and to become even more creative :3 Mehh I'm always such a deep thinker xD The down side was that I was sick and it gradually got worse as the weekend progressed. My voice sounded horrible and by Sunday I felt like I was going to die LOL.

But turning 18 was great o_O When I was little, I imagined an 18 year old being so grown up and so mature and so ~*womanly*~ and yet I am none of those things LOL. Being 18, I exercised my right to be able to purchase weapons and... well that's it so far derp derp. 18 is one of those milestone ages, I guess you could put it. Now that I'm 18, it kind of feels like I'm being born again o_O People look at you differently when you say you're 18 and you can do so much more things. In a sense, it kind of helped me become more confident and comfortable with myself. I'm not sure how to describe it haha.

Anyway, the remaining two weeks of my winter break went by really fast. The first week was spent recuperating from that weird sickness I had. Then it was Christmas and I didn't even do anything different or special. My family just had a nice dinner, but that was it. Christmas Eve was spent buying gifts and ugh it just didn't feel special.

This week, I was able to get the money my dad left for me because I'm finally 18. I bought myself a video camera and some stuff at H&M l o l. I got my mom a 200 dollar purse sdjfhdfg and she got some money to pay for the debts that were left behind -_- ANYWAY, the rest is saved for college and yeahthatsit.

So now it's New Year's Eve and I'm in my room almost finished with writing this thing LOL. Now that I look back on it, this year wasn't so boring and I'm pretty happy with it. However, 2012 is definitely going to be way better. I'll be graduating high school and starting college o_o!! Since this year is going to be a pretty big deal, I might do the 365 project haha. I definitely want to go to new places and try new things. I want to do more things that I won't regret. I want to become more confident in myself. I want to work on more projects and be more creative. I want to learn how to drive LOL. I want to get my black belt finally. ahhh there are just so many things I want to do and I have to make sure I get them done this new year!

hiiii~!

2011-12-30T22:35:00.001-08:00

So I've been following some blogs on here for a while, but I never had my own account.
...well scratch that.
I did have an account where I attempted to be a fashion blog. yep didn't work out l o l. I got too lazy and pssh I'd never be able to keep going with that. I also forgot what email and password I used for the blog too ._.
so now I'm here in my kawaii little world LOL.
With this blog, I want to be able to fully express myself and find others who I can relate to :3
I really enjoy reading about other people's lives. Not in that nosy sense, but because I just like to see what other people's lives are like LOL. I'm just really curious :3 I can easily become inspired by reading other people's blogs because it gives me another perspective on life I suppose c:
so this is a little mini intro post. I'll post the full introduction next xD